Archive for November 12th, 2009


Roxie

Those of you who know me may know that Roxie is my car. Did you know she was my Mom’s car? The weekend that my Mom died I was actually planning to purchase a new vehicle, but I ended up with hers instead. I love driving this car. I love that it was hers. For many months, maybe even a few years, I left a few things exactly as she had them. I didn’t change the radio’s preset buttons until I moved back to Texas last year! There are still a few items in the driver’s door map pocket that were hers, including a phone number of one of her good friends who was planning to join us for Thanksgiving dinner. I see this number, written in my Mom’s handwriting, almost everytime I exit my vehicle. It’s a nice reminder.

I have an updated insurance card so I was going through the glove box today and realized that my Mom kept a log of every time she filled up her gas tank. I had seen the little notebook in there, of course, but I didn’t realize the log was kept current. I can trace every tank of gas she bought from this car’s very first until her last, about ten days before she died.

I don’t know why this has made me so sad. Maybe it’s seeing her diligence in action…maybe it’s the handwriting…maybe it’s just because I miss her. I removed all of the old and outdated insurance info, but I put that gas log right back where it was. That seems to be the best place for it.