I’m feeling anxious and uncertain today. I find myself chewing on my upper lip, and that’s a sure sign that I’m worried about something.

The voice of truth tells me a different story
The voice of truth says “Do not be afraid”
The voice of truth says “This is for my glory”
Out of all the voices crying out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth

I have struggled with living looking backwards, holding on to a past filled with some successes, but also plenty of bad decisions and failures. My thought process was that if I could analyze and think about it enough, I’d be able to change it moving forward. What I’ve actually noticed is that just like in a vehicle, you’re either looking behind you or you’re looking straight ahead. You can’t do both simultaneously. I’m trying to change my outlook and my thought patterns and it’s so hard. Seriously, this is harder than losing weight! Every time I feel like I’ve made a bit of progress, even a little bit, I hear Satan reminding me of all that I’ve done wrong. His voice is so dang loud in my head! I know that Satan doesn’t attack stuff that doesn’t matter, and this matters very much. This is an opportunity to change my life, the way I live, from the inside out! (an approach I’ve never really tried before, btw.) I know I can’t do it without the Lord’s help and I so clearly need to hear God’s voice.

A rough day.