Today was a hard day for reasons that both do and don’t make sense to me.

I’m confident that at least a partial source of this malaise is that I return to work tomorrow…I’m actually mildly nauseated at the thought.

Have you ever had a realization that you’re doing something completely  incorrectly? You thought that things were this way, but really they were that way? I’m feeling that way about a couple of different areas of my life (pardon my being intentionally abstruse) and I feel completely bound-at-the-wrists by it. I’m not sure what to do/what I can do/what I should do to alter my course. It’s suddenly hard to breathe.

Right this minute, the place where expectation [hope] meets reality is cold and hard and dark.

Today has just been a really hard day.