Stairs.
Key.
Lock.
Lock.
Key.
Collar.
Scarf.*
Hat.
Gloves.
Jacket.
Scarf.*
Shoes.
Socks.
Clothes.
Jammies.

Bed.

*The two-scarf method rocks.

I’m sort of overwhelmed with the birthday love I received this year, but in the best sense. I am honored that anyone would remember, and I heard from friends and family scattered all over. What a blessing!

I’m praying for God to be permitted to move in my life over these next twelve months…I want him to take me places I’ve never been and to show me things I’ve never seen. I want to know him more and to more fully realize his plan in my life.

Watching Tunes was a doozy…it was hard, much harder than I thought it would be. Am I just refusing to let go of a part of my life that was just really special? I’ve never felt this kind of tie to a place; maybe that’s just how this is going to work. I miss that place, the people (oh, the people!), and I miss the work I did while I was there. Lord, help me to understand.

A final note on Tunes: after watching the live webcast last night, I finally felt ready to watch the 2008 show, so I did. I then followed those two with the shows from 2007 and 2006. That was a mistake for several reasons, not the least of which was that I was up until 2:45 am. Waking up for church this morning was hard and I was sad. After going more than a year Tunes-free, gorging on four years of shows packed quite a punch.

I really, really needed the days I had off last week. It’s hard to explain…I just needed it.

Joey and I are going to see U2 in three days and I’m so excited! Have I mentioned that before? I have? Oh. Well, it’s true.

Here’s a picture of me and my handsome father from today’s lunch. He’s the best.

You may say I’m a dreamer
I’m not the only one

Today was a hard day. There wasn’t any one thing that made it an especially difficult day, just lots of little things. I’m discouraged and tired. I want to go and be with my friends this week but I can’t. The thing with the flowers is stressing me out.

I’m just…tired. I want someone to help run interference for me, you know?

I’m certain that I’ll re-read this post tomorrow and feel like myself again, mostly strong and capable, but tonight I’m tired and maybe a little sad.

I went someplace new today and went there and back without getting lost.
GO ME.

I had a chance to spend some time today with one of my favorite people and it was just good. Really, really good.
It makes me happy.

I won’t miss getting up every day feeling like a complete and worthless failure.

I really won’t.

(I realize not all of this is related to my current job situation, but I am swimming in the realization that I have failed and the current is strong.)